This is our God

By the power of your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By your spirit i am free
And i will fall at your feet


I turned on Pandora this morning and this is the first song that played. What a great reminder. Although I have major allergies and had little sleep, God is good. He never fails to amaze!

Last night we gathered for Bible study at church and I expected it to be just four of us but it ended up being eight! God really worked in our intimate gathering as we studied the book of Acts. Pray BIG prayers guys! No joke. Our God is not small.

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

1. Be joyful
2. pray continually
3. give thanks
Simple, yes. But why so hard to follow? God gives us something so incredible called faith. Make me faithful 100%. J-GEN next week!!





On a side note: I have this little obsession with Jackie O's timeless fashion

Finding Joy

"The misunderstanding of this book that I want most to avoid is that I am writing to make well-to-do Western Christians comfortable, as if the joy I have in mind is psychological icing on the cake of already superficial Christianity. Therefore let me say clearly here at the beginning that the joy I write to awaken is the sustaining strength of mercy, missions, and martyrdom."

Too selfish

In 1 Peter 2:11, 12 it says,

Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul. Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us.

P. John's sermon yesterday really spoke to me. What are my sinful desires? We have this perception that we lack this one thing and if we only have that, it will make our lives better. Basically, you want what you don't have. Simple example: when I go shopping, I always tell myself I won't buy anything but then I find that ONE article of clothing that I feel I MUST have in order to make my wardrobe complete. Lo and behold, once I get that article, I STILL don't feel complete. It's a never-ending cycle. My sinful desire for buying things is always at war with the soul that is completely fulfilled only with love for Christ. In truth, what do I lack when I am God's beloved? Nothing. Nothing of this world will satisfy.
Galatians 5:16-18,

So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.

This is such a scary thought but it's the truth. I realize more and more that my selfishness is a product of my sinful nature but with repentance, the Spirit can conquer. How amazing is that!

Let's not let our sin overcome but fight for purity. Fight for righteousness. Fight for something real. What more can we ask for?

Can I complain just this once?

I contemplated whether to blog about today or to erase it from my memory and I have chosen the former.

Today...was...weirdd....

I went to my internship today and although I love the people I am working with, my program director could be somewhat boring at times and she tends to mumble a lot. For one, she has a really low voice (because she dambae pyuhs) and it's pretty monotone. When she showed us her sponsorship proposal and how to write it, sorry to say I was falling asleep and the heat in the backroom did more worse than good. There's a/c but for some reason they don't turn it in. Probably to save money.

Anywayssss, after she talked about her 15 page proposal and the guy who got murdered in front of her house, she told me and another intern to go back out to division street and give out invitations to our golf fundraiser in august. Feeling relieved to get out of the office for a while, we walked to the puerto rican parade office to give them an invitation. The secretary seemed pretty annoyed and said "Have a nice day" as we were leaving but she said it with the most unenthusiastic tone.

As we walked on one side of division street, there was a group of maybe four guys standing outside of a mart and we got hollered at. EW. one guy even cracked out a racist comment clearly directed towards me, since the other intern is white.

Sooo...we moved to the other side of the street and got hollered at again by a different group of guys! double EW.
[Note: Neither of us acknowledged those maniacs and neither of us were even wearing immodest attire. We were both wearing t-shirts and jeans and sneakers]

Anddd I really wish we didn't do what we did next: we walked into the ---- office and the ceo/president got friendly with my fellow intern right away. triple EW. He kept us there for a good 40 minutes but it felt like two hours of my life shriveling away. He talked so close to our faces and kept patting our backs and even stroked the other girl's hair. If he got any close to touching my hair, I would have punched him! FINALLY he let us go and we went back to the office to eat lunch.
[Note: I have nothing against the organization because it is doing great things for needy families.]

I happily spent the rest of the afternoon in the office printing and stuffing envelopes.
On the bus ride home, this guy sat next to me when there were so many open seats on the bus and he naem sae nah-ed. -____-

OK, I'm done being grossed out for the day but never again will I complain of my boring director and the hot backroom. And never again do I want to set foot on division street.

Love Guru

1. I kissed dating goodbye

















2. boy meets girl















3. critique of secular dating - pastor jong park

4. model for biblical courtship - pastor milo cho

5. the line of brotherhood and sisterhood - pastor min chung


ask me anything. BAM!

jkjk don't ask me. i'm the last person you wanna ask. but good stuff. check it.



Satan tries to attack when: you are far from God or you are physically weak.
more than ever, i feel the temptations especially with my shoulder being messed up. it's so aggravating but trying so hard to see the light. GAH, my mind is all over the place.

"The breath of spiritual life is prayer." - James Emery White from The Prayer God Longs For

God, teach me to pray.

Betty and Veronica

No...they are not from the Archie comics.

















They are both anchors for CNN.

Veronica de la Cruz and Betty Nguyen
check it



i dream of cnn

Relationships

I wrote practically everything I wanted to say in my plaid, hardcover journal so I have nothing left to say here...hehehehe
well, it's been a while since I actually started and FINISHED a whole book but this is where I break my streak

I kissed dating Goodbye by Josh Harris


I have to say that this book is GOOD. It really opened up my mind on relationships in general (not just guy-girl). It made me really evaluate my actions, thoughts, speech. What better time to read this than now when I'm not in a relationship? That way when people question me, I don't have to hide anything. hehe. I highly recommend this book. Very practical and very Bible-based. A good balance of perspective. Do not be fooled by the cover and title.

Listen to the author himself.

i'm boring.

me: but can i get picked up from my church?

u know where it is right?

Elise: no

walk here

me: please!

Elise: NO

YOURE NOT FUN ENOUGH ANYMORE

YOU HAVE TO WALK AND GAIN ALL YOUR FUNNESS BACK

and THEN i will let yuo in the car

me: PLEASE!!

11:32 AM Elise: hahahaha

me: not the fun-gaining walk!

NOOOOO

Elise: alright alright

hahaha

but this is teh last time

if youre boring next time too, i will not pick you up.


John: tina i think you're losing your crassyness

you're maturin

John: you're like

depressed form tina

John: u are so depressing

John: u are now depressed tina

no fun tina

ok...sorry in advance if i'm so depressing/boring/unfun !
i cant help that i am not only 2 decades old...i FEEL 2 decades old.

totally reminded of this clip: Jack Black & Will Farrell singing at the Oscars





wat happened to beauty, truth, and love?

HOT HOT

Come What May









I enjoy stimulating convos. i had so many this past weekend on the topic of credit cards to past crushes to God's grace. i must say i've learned a lot about myself, the world, other people. Let's have more stimulating convos!

kosta! over and out.