Blog vs. Journal

I read about 15 other blogs. Some are really deep and some are just for fun. i think mine falls in between. i blog for the fun of it but then it's not that fun when i read it again. i blog to get some deep thoughts down but i never really hit that level and i shift over to my hardcover plaid journal from target. gosh, no consistently i know. i wonder if this applies to other things in my life. i wish not.

This week is prep time for kosta 09. physically, mentally, spiritually. time for a revival.
time to anticipate all the things God will do next week. exciting? heck yea.
you know what? it will be just as good this week.
love love.

"i don't wanna get over her. i wanna get her back."
one two three. AWWWWW

Korean dramas really make me think.

two things i found puzzling in the drama i'm watching:
- comfortable love is best
- money is scary

I really enjoy vid chatting :]


soooo once i thought i figured out my heart motive, i was told to evaluate it in times of extreme emotions. i felt some really extreme emotions this past weekend and i tried to evaluate. i think i might have partially succeeded but partially failed. I'll try again next time.
one thing i know, i dont have to PROVE my salvation. my faith is proof enough. I thank God!
sam's club and i went to the harold washington library on saturday and we both got such a huge pile of books that we almost sweat our butts off trying to carry them all home. my goal: to read them all. 9 total. i dont read much cuz i read soooo slow. all the books i got are christian books and i'm hoping that through those and the wonderful bible, i can make some solid decisions about my life this summer. prayer and anticipation

i have a secret rooting game. j.lee, i'll muzzle u in ur sleep if you spill the beans!
over and out.

Summer

So my internship got cancelled the next 3 weeks (well one week i cancelled it myself cuz of kosta) and i realized that with all this time, I need to make some goals in life if i wanna get anywhere and do anything useful starting with my summer goals.
in no particular order,

1. catch up on bible reading (one month and 2 days behind and it stays that way unless i start reading more than one day's worth)
2. be active (physically - jogging in the morning, softball, tennis, jumping jacks? watever)
3. read (and finish) some good christian books
4. complete: kimbo scholarship app, nbc app
5. learn (and master) videography and sound editing
6. STOP spending so much money! scrape and save for dreams of traveling
7. PRAY! for many many things. God's throwing me curveballs left and right and i'm missing each one. i dont wanna strike out!
8. get at least 150 in bowling :P
9. clean up my new space and pack EFFICIENTLY for school
10. practice French! i need to go to paris

that's all for now i guess...can't get too ahead of myself now.
also, i need to stop living life in fear. fear of failure. fear of rejection. fear of regret. fear of hurt. FDR said "Only thing we have to fear is fear itself."
i say, the one thing you need to fear is the Lord.

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good understanding. To him belongs eternal praise.

Psalm 111:10


on that note, living life on the edge is good, but i want to see the day when I am willing to jump off with the confidence that God will give me wings and i dont go crashing to the ground.



i really miss dancing. i do.

reflections on a single female

Everyone reaches that age when all your friends are getting married and you're attending wedding after wedding. I wonder...what if you're the last one? Wouldn't you feel left out? Do people scramble to be the first to go? In this day and age, it seems like there's no real competition anymore. Most people are so caught up getting their careers together that there's no time to settle down, let alone "look&find" their significant other. Traditional Korean parents are learning to adjust to their second gen children and maybe even accept the fact that their child will never be wed. Sad? you decide.

As for me, I am in no position or age to get married now but I do think about it a lot. I don't think it's very good for my mental health. The answer: pray.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
Jeremiah 29:11-13


Good to know there's a plan. Believe it or not, your life is already planned out for you. SO stop trying to control it!

T-storms

"The end of a matter is better than its beginning,
and patience is better than pride." Ecclesiastes 7:8



Even though I stay indoors most of the time...when the rains come, I suddenly have this urge to go outside. But i can't.
i dislike rain very very much.
it was thundering sooo loud earlier but now all the thunder i hear is from the tape my bro turned on that has t-storm sounds, car horns, and rain. kinda funny.

anywayss...some lovely pics of my 20th bday. photo credits to nahms park.






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THANKS!



















KOSTA 09. can't wait

Sam's Club

we all have our moments but sammy was the star of ridiculous moments this week.

(discussing my bday plans)
sana: tinaaaa wat are u most excited about tmrw? the face massage? the pedicure? the workout?
sammy: being fed fruit?

(sammy got a new tigger doll but it's not ur traditional tigger colors. it's white and gold)
sammy: you are tigger's sister so wat rhymes with tigger? OHHHHH i'll name u *igger!
tim: sammy, that's a derogatory term!
sammy: wat?



my loving bro timothy wrote me a poem for my bday

Each year with age
Hair turns shades of grey
But don't worry, or forwn
No need for dismay

Things like this
Are not always beyond repair
Our birthday gift this year
advanced facial care

Sadly, with age
Tour nails start to tarnish
So we fixed it all up
With "Christmas-colors" varnish

Finally to relieve all the stress
That's built up overtime
We massaged your face
With help of videos online

Happy 20th Birthday
In this very real thought
Prompted by the signs
Your Birthday brought

dramas galore

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more to come!